August 22, 2010

Personality Disorder Test

It's 2:58 in the morning. I yawned many times, feel so drowsy and wanted to sleep unfortunately I'm still here surfing because I don't want to just lay in bed and be drown with dramatic thoughts. I know its not accurate nor never will be reliable but I had it answered anyway. 

This reminds me of my visit to a psychologist six months ago. Well, I ended up feeling humiliated thus did not come back anymore as advised. That was crazy. All she did was checked her watch from time to time and then say something like "oh.. it's okay".  

What sex are you? Female
Do you believe you have more difficulty with relationships than the average person your age? Yes
Do you have difficulty trusting people?
I always had a hard time trusting people but when I do, I trust them so much. Only that, they always disappoint me in the end. Well that doesn't change my belief, nowadays, I don't know whom to trust anymore.
Do you tend to avoid social relationships?No
Do you prefer to be alone rather than in the company of others?
I'm just comfortable being alone. I can do everything I wanted without trying to consider them as  part of my responsibility.  
If you answered yes to the previous question, is it because you feel very anxious in social situations, or.. Yes
..because you are suspicious of their motives? Yes
Do you find yourself unaffected by praise or criticism?
A single criticism can ruin my whole week or so. 
Do you see people who get taken advantage of as being weak and deserving of being used? Yes
Do you feel a yearning for acceptance among your peers? Yes
Do you have a difficult time relating to others? Yes
Do you believe you have special extrasensory abilities (ability to "sense" a person's presence, for example)?
I don't know how that happen, Don't ask.
Do you often find that your emotions are inappropriate for a given situation?
I think I am always over reacting. I always regretful at the end of the day for not behaving properly or not showing the appropriate emotions.
Are you plagued by suspicions that other people, including loved ones, may be doing things behind your back that will end up hurting you?Yes
Do others see you as being cold and distant? Yes
Do you tend to choose jobs that are below your skill level? Yes
Do you find it hard to concentrate on one thing for a long time? Yes
Is your appearance or behavior considered "eccentric" by other people? No
Have other people accused you of being cruel to animals or people? No
Do you take actions without thinking about the consequences? Yes
Do you sometimes profit at the expense of others, without being bothered by the pain or damage you may cause them? No
Do you consider your needs to be more important to you than the needs of others? No
Do your moods fluctuate a lot? Yes
Are you prone to bouts of anger? Yes
Do you often feel like people are saying negative things about you behind your back? Yes
Do you often see things in black and white terms? In other words, something either is or it isn't, with no gray area inbetween. Yes
Are you often uninterested in the feelings of others? Yes
When you are talking to someone, do they sometimes have difficulty following your train of thought? Yes
Are you quick to anger when your expectations are not met? Yes
Do you intentionally injure yourself, for instance by cutting yourself or taking too many pills? Yes
Do consider yourself having a strong love for approval and praise? Yes
Do other people accuse you of being manipulative? Yes
Have you had recurrent thoughts of suicide? Yes
If you answered yes to the previous question, do you tend to have these suicidal thoughts during and after a break-up with someone?No
Do you tend to be critical of loved ones, sometimes holding them to higher standards than you hold yourself to? No
Are you very afraid of being alone? No
Are you focused on order and perfection? No
Do you feel that you are depressed a lot? No
Do you always feel the need to have a story to tell? Yes
Have you ever been in jail or done something that you could be put in jail for? No
Do other people accuse you of being self-centered? Yes
Do you occasionally or often dress or act provocatively to gain attention? No
Do you have a big fear of rejection (of any kind, not just romantic)? Yes
Do you often second-guess yourself? Yes
Do you find yourself exaggerating your achievements to win the respect of others? Yes
Do you frequently alternate between feelings of high self-worth and self-disappointment? Yes
Do you tend to lie a lot? No
Do you frequently reassure yourself that you are deserving of praise? Yes
Do you frequently reassure yourself that you are self-sufficient? Yes
Do you often feel uncomfortable in social situations? Yes
Does your concern for doing everything "right" interfere with your productivity? Yes
Do you have trouble not taking criticism personally? Yes
Do you feel the need to always be in a relationship? No
Are you quiet in social situations, often out of fear of saying something stupid? Yes
Are you often critical of weakness in others, particularly classmates or coworkers? Yes
Do you exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations in order to convince yourself not to try out new activities? Yes
Do you yearn for intimate relationships yet feel that you are too socially inept to obtain them? No
Do you ever steal things from stores or people's houses? Yes
Do you suffer from low confidence? Yes
Have you ever exaggerated illness or other weakness in order to get attention? No
Do you have an intense fear of separation from those you love? No
Have others accused you of being arrogant? No
Do you avoid working in teams because you are convinced that others are too careless and will not work to your standards? Yes
Do you often let others make important decisions for you? Yes
Do you have intense feelings of inadequacy and helplessness? Yes
Do you often get stuck on the details while missing the larger picture? Yes
Are you very concerned with your appearance and how others perceive you? Yes
Do others accuse you of being rigid or stubborn? No
Do you have a hard time throwing things away, even if they are old and worn out? No
Do you engage in any obsessive or compulsive behavior? No

The result is not surprising, the time is. It's already 4:14 AM. I guess I over contemplated.
I'm too sleepy to publish explanation right now but I had it in mind :)

Good night!

Paranoid:Very High
Schizotypal:Very High
Borderline:Very High
Histrionic:Very High
Narcissistic:Very High
Avoidant:Very High

-- Personality Disorder Test --

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