Earlier today I was oriented by the agency’s policies. I was surprised and disappointed by a lot of things I decided not to talk about. I was even told of what to wear for a week or two. Since I can no longer wear my dresses (The HR coordinator told me I was not supposed to wear something that could catch everybody’s attention like I always do… Is it my fault to be pretty madam?!! nyahahha) kidding aside, I obliged myself to buy new get-ups just the way they required. I bought white T-shirts, white shoes, socks, pants, cap, a small notebook, and a pen. Whew! That reminded me of my neophyte days! Damn it.
Earlier this evening, I hate to admit this, I cried as I felt sorry for myself that I’m going to have my first day of work tomorrow. I was thinking of how my life had been… of how lucky I am to live such kind of life. That I stoop down this far. In any way, since I left myself with no other choice but to make my life miserable so I’ll be working hard like I deserved one. The only comfort I’m giving myself right now is that this is my way to start disciplining myself. I need this to grow.