I seldom talk and decide… and worst, I hardly had a good choice of word and decision. It is always something to regret, actions and words that will soon attack me with guilt.
So, what do you think is the best for me? Do I have to remain forever in silence and in passive stance? I know I am not smart but I am not dumb either. Perhaps I need time to think of something that could make me a better person.
This is what I mean of being back in reality: having the ability to recognize mistakes and the capacity to withstand it.
People around know little things about me, and I am not asking them to know those silly details of my stupid life. There is no need to know those information’s just for me to be understood.
Though I want people around me to consider the fact that they know little, that's why there is no point of judging me.
I wish they know that I am on my process of gaining my lost ground— finding my vanished essence of lonely existence—looking around for my missing low self-esteem
—no more, no less, no questions to be ask.
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