December 2, 2007

Denial Queen



I believe I've been a denial queen for the past three months… whooahhh been through a life full of pretension—uttering happy words that I never felt at all. I run away but pain chases me. A living zombie perhaps… forcing myself to be numb and denied the pain… everything was a lie—me being a liar.
And I am not here to explain… my intension of leaving away will be forever misunderstood, I guess... call me crazy… tell me I am crazy… but tell me first lil’ things you know about my life… do you know me?

I was attacked by a depression… I suffered from extreme fluctuation of emotions—no one hear me crying... Been out of my mind… been out of this world… been the person I am not… BUT THE THING IS… I’M BACK— or perhaps I am still on my way back to reality… I am on a right track…I can hear myself laughing… how I miss laughing… how I miss my laughter… it feels so good…

Originally posted at
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