My Life Starts Today

“Tonight I am going to prove myself how pointless the life I made. And tomorrow as the year shall end, I wished I could understand all the memories of 2007. I felt so sorry for everything that happened. My attitude towards my existence—I cried over silly things and laughed over painful moments—stupid as it is”
                                                                                CristyMay 12-31-07

The year 2007 was not as good as one would like to experience (a shocking one)…with memories that is dragging me down, and perhaps even worst than the year 2004—everything was remarkably bad.

Skipping years are so impossible though. I only wished I could.

But I am thinking of it this way, trying to justify the reality: Surpassing all the horrors and nightmares of 2004 and 2007 is a relief. It made me believe that I can be tough despite of my weakness.

And if I had wishes for this year, I hope I could have all the bravery I need and heart to understand everything that happened and will happen. I pray for acceptance, I guess that is all I need right now.

So that’s it. And today… my life starts.


Happy New Year