I remember I did pray hard not to experience this kind of comeback. I had been asking God for a complete guidance to lead me to the right path. I never wished to get even but I am forced to do so.
Don’t get me wrong but I am taking it generally. I am not going to pinpoint a single person here because my plans encompass everyone inside the circle of cruelty.
You’ll never feel my kindness anymore and my considerations.
I’ll be creating a one dimensional world; my selfishness is now activated, making my mind so narrow—I can’t help but to think of how I can get even!
I always attribute everything to myself and thought of everything as my own fault—but not this time! You see how you cleaned out my three-dimensional way of thinking? Since you impaired me; expect then that I’ll be like a microorganism spoiling you sooner or later with no past-reflection like the way you did.
Yeah, you made me feel I am nothing, you belittle my existence—I feel like a microbe. But don’t you remember what a microbe can do to your whole system especially now that I am starting to mutate and tried to resist everything?
When I thought I could still be good, or shall I say when you’re bad, you are bad no matter what it takes. Perhaps I was born having a wicked nature. This is me… I am bad though I tried to be good.
Everything around me is getting into my nerves. And I shiver in anger; it freezes my brain closing every circuits of it.
Silence echoes like a thunder running all over my system—deafening silence! What it is all about? Why such an existence?
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