January 26, 2010

Finals

Today, I got less than a month to prepare for our final exam. I am hoping to pass but I do nothing but cry!!! stupid! really out of my mind...

January 10, 2010

Nowhere to go


I had nowhere to go...
I feel so lost and empty...
I wish I could find myself so soon...

January 9, 2010

when will my reflection show...



I know something is really wrong....
I'm so not myself lately...

January 2, 2010

Tired


one thing I know...they won't stop until you stumble and fall... and I'm tired of standing up again and again

Forwards and a Little of Backwards

I am now ready to face reality that today will never be the same as yesterday. I'll be facing life and circumstances all alone with no one's hand to help me. I am determined to make a new step. Steps forward will do and a little of backwards to guide my way. I know, somehow I am strong and I can do this little by little… it is being dependent on others that made me weak. And now that I have no one to depend on, I can have my strength back in no time.

As I always believed since I was younger than I am right now ;) (I admit it that I am getting younger no more) loving one's self is a beginning of a life long romance… I have to stick with this. I have to love my self consistently, not loving today and hating tomorrow…but consistently. I have to accept everything about me, get rid of insecurities and seeing others as lucky unlike me. I am lucky. I know I am, only that, I was not able to appreciate because I was pre occupied with insecurities. The culprit! Being so insecure with others make me unlucky… I was the one who made me unlucky. And I'll be the one who will make my self into a lucky one.

Happy 2010

Baby

I wished to give birth to a baby girl this coming year and name it Aurora Amelia EspaƱola :)

whew! dream on...

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